Dear Baby MingMing,

It's Christmas day today. It's my first Christmas without you. I can still remember just a week ago when you slept beside me to make me feel loved. And just 2 days ago when you asked for help because you can't stand peeing your bed anymore 😞 I'm sorry you had to go. I miss you everyday. I hope the euthanasia comforted you and that you are free of pain. I wish I could be with you. If only there's a way we could be together forever. Doing the things we love together. Meditating, crocheting, annoying each other, sleeping together, watching Bojack Horseman together, listening to podcasts together... I didn't realize we have been together for 15 years. It seemed like a very short time. I'm sorry we couldn't extend your life up to 30 or more. Science hasn't made that possible yet. I've been crying a lot since you got weak and sick. We both know it will come to this eventually. Aging sucks. You taught me how to love a daughter because that's how you feel like for me, especially when you were young. And you also taught me how to love a grandma since that's how it felt like when you aged. I cried way more for you than for my own grandparents. Isn't that strange? I hope you're ok there. I know you're in kitty heaven. You've been the best pet ever. I've never had a pet like you. When I was a kid, my stuffed kitten looked like you and having you was a dream come true. I'm still very sad but I'll be ok. I should be okay, right? I'll never forget you. 😞 Merry Christmas! I hope you got all you want and whatever you wish for. Thanks for being part of my life.

Love,

Your only slave