My sweet Willow,
I don’t know how to comprehend loosing you. You were my best friend. You ARE my best friend. I regret any moment not spent with you. My last moment with you was late at night on September 30. You were laying in bed and I had to get up. You wanted to come with me but I closed my door so you would stay inside my room. I came back exhausted and laid down in bed right next to you and went to sleep not realizing that that would be my last moment with you. October 1 10:43am I heard your name being screamed from mom and dads room. I ran to their room with my mind going to so many different places but you being gone just didn’t seem possible. Seeing you restless on the floor was the most traumatic experience of my life. At first I didn’t believe it. I just stared at you laying there. The pose you were in was a pose you would do regularly but this time it wasn’t really you. I didn’t know what to do. I got down next to you and tried to wake you. I didn’t believe it. I just don’t understand why you were taken. you were the sweetest puppy. you were so young and healthy. you were just the happiest soul and you never knew what it was like to be unhappy. You deserve the world, my little girl. part of me blames myself for this. We adopted you young at a time when I had no friends and I was having many problems in my life. Once my life was finally starting to go better and I started gaining friends it feels like you’re gone because the world thought I didn’t need you anymore. but I do. I promise I do. On your birthday September 29 2023 you turned four years old. I was at the state fair and I never got to say happy birthday. I feel like I failed you. I feel like I should’ve realized something was wrong going back. I don’t remember seeing any symptoms but I can’t help but feel like if I wasn’t so distracted with my life and going out with friends, then I could’ve noticed something. I wish I could’ve saved you. I would take your place any day. You made me the happiest I’ve ever been in my life. You would lick my tears when I was sad and jump up and down with me when I was happy. you understood me the way that nobody else in the world did. I feel like it’s all my fault that my little girl is gone. I miss your yellowish brown eyes and your bright pink tongue with a freckle in the middle. I feel so empty without you. I just hope you’re ok. I hope you Rest in paradise my sweet, innocent puppy. I will never forget you. I love you more than I love myself.