Dear Yuki,

You left us yesterday morning and this house is so empty without you.

I know that you died the best way it could be, sleeping, you fought just about one month with heart cancer, but didn't had any sympoms , so you were so blessed that you didn't suffer.

But I' m here complete lost without you in the house by my side....you were my baby, my world, my love one for 9 years, helping me heal from my mom's death, and so many others hard times, and i took care of all your skin, eye, ears etc problems, and after 4 or 5 cirguries that you to go thru, with all my love and I would do it again a million times if needed....you are sooo missed....so loved....I really can't get over been away from you right now....I've crying since I heard your last breath.

Sometimes i get desperated just to think I will never hold you in my arms and kiss you ever again.....it is killing me right now......

I always was so afraid of the time you have to leave us, and now here we are...and I don't know what to do. I can't even take your bed or your things away. I look for you all the time in the house, your cat bro is looking for you as well.....everytime i go to the bathroom , the kitchen, the room, the tv room, I wait for you to follow me, yesterday i was looking for you to call you to go to bed with us....dad is missing you a lot too...but he is all strong bc he sees that he needs to be there for me...but he is suffering a lot.

He is the only one that makes me feel a litlle better....

I remember your happy dance when we invated you to go for a walk everyday, and how you didn't let us forget to walk you in the end of the day crying and winning untill someone take you for the loved walk....that was the thing you loved the most ..not even food or a petting you was better than go for a walk.....

It is good to remember how happy you were when we got back from a long trip and how you demonstrated that you weren't happy that we left you for so long....bitting me very softly teeling me that you didn't like it....

How a good companian you were when we sleep untill late and you loved to stay in bed with us...oh you really loved your bed right beside me.... I remember when you were a pupy i had to give you all your food in my hands bc you didn't like to eat, and when you grow up we had to play that we were going to catch your food so you would eat.....and when we didn't you asked us to do so , winning......ah my love there are so many memories that i could write for hours.....i love you more than anything, i would give everything i have to have you back here with me.....be in peace my love, i know you are in dogs heaven bc you just had love inside you, nothing more, you were the most kind dog ever....

Hope we will meet again than i can embrace and kiss your face as i always did and i miss so much to do it again......my baby boy, my little one.....

My beloved baby, i loved you everyday of my life more than anyone could love you, and i always will....you will be forever in my heart.

I'm devasted right now, but someday it will be easier to live without you...i hope.....

Sorry about my poor english , we are from Brazil, but the pain and the grief is the same.....hurts the same.....

Right now I'm 4 moths pregnant of twins and I dreamed before to see my Yuki playing with the kids at hone...bc he loved sooooo much children.....now I don't know anything anymore.....i just miss him too much....

Love,

Mamy