My sweet Blueberry Boy,

To my sweetest Blueberry Boy aka Blu, Blue B, Blueberry, Blues Brothers 2000, Blueberries for

Sal, Flippy Bear-

I can’t believe you’re gone. You, who found us, who filled our days and nights with more love

and humor and snuggles and laughter than I could have imagined. You, who by coming into our

lives, effortlessly made us a family. Blu- you were my soul kitty- from the moment you put your

paw on my hand, to the last time- the first time you fell asleep on me and your head fell onto my

chest, to that very last time, when you went to sleep with your head in my hand. You were my

best friend and the most loyal companion I could have imagined. I didn’t deserve you, but I will

forever feel like it was fate that brought us together and am so unimaginably grateful to have

known you.

Everyday my world is less than, there is less love, and less smiles, less light. Everywhere I look-

I see you. I thought we would have so much more time. That Gwenie would grow up with the

world's best, most protective kitty. That we would all be a family for years and years to come.

You kept me safe at night while Erik was working, you followed us on walks and hopped into our

cars when we got home from work. You stopped us from fighting and tried to get the baby to

stop crying. You brought us the GP. You made it that I never felt alone, because I wasn’t.

Nestled in the crook of my arm was always you. Crouched by the back down, was always you.

Running to the car when I pulled up, was always you. Looking up to make sure I looked you

directly in the eyes and shook your food bowl before you could eat, was always you.

I’m so sorry you got sick. I’m so sorry I didn’t notice until it was too late. I’m so sorry I couldn’t

save you. I hope we did the right thing, but I couldn’t watch you suffer anymore. If love and

sheer wanting was enough, I would have. I’m so sorry I left you for so long – and that your world

with the baby was so different. I hope you knew how loved you were, how much I missed you

while I was in the hospital. How important you were and are to me, to all of us.

You have marked my life. And we will tell legends of you in our family for as long as I’m around.

I miss you more than I could ever put into words. I want you back. I want you here. I can’t

believe you’re gone. The world doesn’t know what it lost when you left. But there will forever for

me be before and after. You will be missed forever and loved forever.

Always yours,

Mama

Love always,

Mama