My dearest quinchi,

my cutest dumbest baby. i will forever miss you. i still feel your presence wherever i go. in bed where i cry waiting for you to snuggle up next to my pillow. when i walk home and i see stray cats and i have to gather every bit of my willpower to walk away knowing that you wont be waiting at the door for me. writing on my desk thinking about how you were so curious about whatever's under it. staring at the mirror where i used to admire the way that you wouldnt leave my arms as long as i was scratching under your chin. even when im away from home and i remember that i wasnt there with you when you passed.

im sorry that i wasnt a better parent to you. i wish i never went to university. sometimes i wish that you were adopted by someone else so that they wouldve cared for you better than i could. i love you so much quinchi baby.

Love always,

gabby